dear_y_o_u

I need to be more productive. More reliable. More goal-oriented.

There are so many things I want to do in such little time.

Hey to the three people that read this my birthday is on Friday and I'm going to Milton's at ten o'clock so you should most definitely come.

301 Milton St
Cincinnati, OH 45202-0925

Suddenly I am finding myself to be kind of broke and it sucks :(

On a brighter note, I'm real excited to go to Baltimore and get away for a bit. I rented a little townhouse so I can have a cute, nice place to sleep. People I like are staying in it with me, and I shall make them grilled cheeses when we're all drunk at 4 AM. The ride there will be great I'm sure, and the fest will be super awesome! Good things.

I think I'm done going to shows.

Jonny left today and I am happy for him because he has been looking so forward to this tour thingy. But at the same time my heart feels all sad and empty when I think about not seeing him for a month.

I sound pathetic but no one reads this anyways so fuck it.

haaaaaaa my life is a joke

I'm miserable. I hate having to go "home". I put home in quotations because my apartment doesn't feel like home. It feels so unlike home, that I'm moving out. I'm not sure if it's just too much room for just me or if it's just that I don't like living alone as much as I guessed I would. But I honestly get depressed when I have to stay here for more than a few hours at a time. I guess I'm gonna move back in with my parents. I don't really have any girl friends that I could live with. I don't really have any girlfriends in general, which is another thing that makes me suck as a human being. And I guess I can't live with a dude. So I'm basically just screwed. YAY. Bye.

I gotta new phone and new number so this is it:

513 264 9265.

I've been thinking a lot lately about stuff I've purposely overlooked before. I don't know how much longer it can be ignored. UGH.

The fact that I get to see Lemuria in a few hours makes my whole weekend. Yipee!!!

I really wanna go to the park.

In case I haven't just come right out and said it before, I fucking loathe every minute I have to live here. All I wanna do is be left alone, or at least be in the company of someone I could stand. I don't like having to live in a house where everything is dirty/messy all of the time. I clean and clean and things go back to being trashed after a day. UGH I can't wait to find somewhere else. By myself. I'm not living with someone again until I know I'm marrying them.

Just had to get that out there, thanks.

I WANT EXTENSIONS

One of my best friends is getting married. So weird.

like a goddamn dog
with its tail between its legs
ashamed of trying to butter up your obituary.

at least i can say i tried with you.
at least i can say i tried with you.

"Are you joking? Do you guys like it here? Who the hell likes being stuck in a place where you can't even smile? It's hot as balls, everybody's an asshole. I just wanna go home."

my dog died. it made me sad.

RIP Gizmo.

I can't wait until my life is stable enough to get a little puppy.

* i've been narrowing down places to live. or at least areas.
my parents are freaking out about me living by myself, which is kind of silly if you ask
me.

* i'm gonne die of exhaustion soon, AHHHH

* but everything's good so good!

Things are going well. I'm almost done with all things school related for the summer, and I couldn't be happier about it. I'm about to finish my research paper, and that weight will be lifted off my shoulders. Then starting next week I'm gonna be working more, which is of course a +/-.

And then! in like two weeks I'm going to Baltimore for my very first "insub fest" experience. I would be lying if I said I wasn't really excited. I'm looking forward to seeing cool bands, I'm looking forward to getting out of town, I'm looking forward to the road trip, I'm looking forward to spending my free time in a swimming pool and drinking and hanging out with cool people. Yay!

Tonight I get to see The Queers for the millionth time and Lemuria for the third time in like two months, excited!